Wednesday, March 6, 2024

Process This

by  shaun lawton



 Beau's Afraid 
     A Real Nightmare 
              review in form of poem

This movie carves out its story
  with a knife winking a bright
 flare from its niche in a flash.

  With a practiced flicker 
  of sudden certain moments
    splashed upon the screen, 
the director deftly
  weaves his tale.

      Presenting a superimposed, 
  flash-cut shuffled deck
of multilayered casino card scenes
   spread out in full garish view
 before our protagonist, 
 reflected off a chrome rim 
circling the barstool 
like a spectrum of bandwidth
 where the film transmutes into
 a stunning and lucid view of
our dazzling mirror neurons
 of paranoid awareness.

    (Nevermind the definition
  of mind, mind you) 
     
    From across these generational divides
   comes severance on waves of prejudice
  of which the mutually fueled disdain 
  of  mirrored faces puppet-master 
 each other into hysterics
 jerking the strings only to
 have it mistaken for loss 
of connection.

 Electricity can't complete 
   the circle if its cut.

   The strings aren't even snipped
 yet the puppet suddenly relaxes
   it's grip on objective reality.
  
  It may be glimpsed quick 
  in the sudden dilation of its pupils
  cast aside at an oblique angle
  or it might be missed entirely.
 
   The price of being unassuming
     while holding out, can be low 
with a high yield net reward.

  Patience is priceless because
     the trick to get through it 
   lies in doing nothing. 

   Beau is short for "beauty"
   (but we can't know that 
 because our egos
stole his identity)
  
   Anyone's life might 
as well be beautiful
  when the front door
 sprouts in blossom.

Each unique sharp
   human edged life
 stays a flower 
  in a field soaking up
 a shared experience

Little radar dishes
   reflect so bright
  tingly taste buds 
 from one split tongue
flaming human
 candle prism.
    
 What's happening
  never becomes evident
 This is not a dream 
or hallucination.   

  Stripped down 
 to its raw element
the quintessential 
   everyman story lies
in the technicularity.

Shining from 
a multitude of eyes
  

    

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Somniavit Omnia

by  shaun lawton



June 20, 1989

The only thing I remember is very strange, and concerns my afternoon nap back at home.  

Apparently I dreamed everything. 

Yes, every person I ever knew in my entire life was in the dream, and they each in fact functioned with the same principle as a mirror, yet in a manner which is entirely alien to actual 2-dimensional reflective surfaces.   

Somehow, in the dream, everyone I ever knew was assembled together in one abstract grouping through which I myself went through, engaged in a certain process with every individual.  The process was as follows: 

1) I showed them myself, i.e, as a full-length body mirror.  But I showed them all of myself:  my entire history of experience, every facet I had undergone since the moment of my conception.  When this performance was concluded, and they in fact had a complete, clear picture of what and who I was, the result was startling:  I saw myself in them.  Just as if they were in fact mirrors.  

2) Each time I saw myself was not enough, however, to complete the reflected picture of myself.  Just as looking in an actual flat mirror is but a fraction of a dimension of the experience of looking into one of these 'person-mirrors', looking into only one of these personmirrors was but a fraction of a dimension of seeing the whole, entire, complete reflection:  To see that, I had to seek, find and look into every individual I had ever encountered in my entire life.  

Thus I spent seven hours dreaming this.  I did it methodically, accurately and totally.  

Each time I showed a person my entire self I saw my reflection in him, and each time this happened I glimpsed just a little more of my own true complete reflection. 

3) At the end of six hours I had attained a true complete and total reflection of my true complete and total self.  

I recall realizing that in fact the only reason I continued sleeping late into the afternoon (instead of getting up and interacting with the day) was specifically to fulfill this dream I was having of seeing myself reflected in the mirror of everyone I had ever met.  

This is the only time I know of in which I actually, purposefully and with awareness completed actions while I slept.  

I suppose the mirror portrait which I should have been left with remains a dream-portrait of myself, for I cannot recall it and besides am quite certain it remains in dreamstate. 


~ excerpt from a dream journal of Shaun A. Lawton